Monday, March 18, 2024
How do words convey the friendship & love I have for the three of you? How do I sum up how happy I was to meet people who share the same sense of humour & laugh as deeply at what I do? Who see me, teach me so much, who share their home, intimate moments & puppy play. You even like the same eclectic music! Love the wildlife I hold so dear. The little things about mushrooms, life on & under the lake, paw prints, the terra firma. I don’t know many adults who see the world with the childhood enthusiasm we do. The wonder of all things that make this life so beautiful, yet are seldom seen by the busyness of the world we are taught to buy into.
You see the insects & the eagles in the sky equally. You are grateful for all of it, as am I. You know your place in the chain of life & accept it with grace, determination & a sense of humour. I know you were always like this. You see us as horses do… through us. You never made me feel bad when I made a mistake. You knew I was nervous trying to do my very best for you. You were always patient & kind. Laughed with me, not at me.
I always told you that my only regret was not meeting you sooner. The worst part was being able to spend so much time with the most fascinating person I had ever met, but who wasn’t able to tell me all I wanted to learn from them.
The memories that I play over in my mind are watching “Miranda” together & talking about another shared favourite, “A Fish Called Wanda”. We both laughed until we cried.
Watching the swans, otters, muskrats, & birds in serenity with you lives within me. You shared your underwater adventures with me; it was so beautiful I felt like I was with you. You taking an extra breath just to thank me for the smallest of kindnesses… you gave me so much more in those moments than I ever gave you. The stillness we shared while we watched the world go by… I loved every single minute. You are my happy place; I’m glad I was able to tell you that.
Your beautiful sparkling eyes, your enormous tuft of hair, your smile, your generous laugh. Your deep love for Anne & Pica. The way you care for them inspires me to believe in unconditional love.
I will meet you in the woods, in the soil where mushrooms thrive. I will swim to you in the murky water where pikes commune. I will soar with you in the sky with all the incredible birds that call you their friend. Every wolf, every wind, every deer will know your name as I say it aloud when I greet them. I don’t believe in a space or time where we exist .. just that we are an energy that entwines & remains paired through thoughts & memories. Surely we all live & exist on so many planes… the universe, vibrations, nature, the mind, heart & spirit. That is where I met you, Michael. That is where I will be with you still. And you with me. I will be with Anne & Pica too.
There is no leaving… only a shift in perception.
Michael, I love you beyond everything.
It is an honour & and gift to have you as a friend.
Tracy Lettner
